Man… this really is no fun. I do so much work, I forget to eat, sleep, definitely forget to shower, and I feel I am not going anywhere. I see videos of gurus, walking and talking through their house, their garage and fancy cars, trying to get you to be motivated to step it up and work harder. Of course I know they are just trying to sell you the idea that if you buy their product you also will have all that stuff. The thing is, 1) I don’t want that stuff, I just want FREEDOM. Not having to work. Eat what I want, travel anywhere I want, take care of my Parents, my brother and sister, to have a worry free life. I know there is one way for me to accomplish this.
I need to go Full time real estate investing. I look at all these rich punks, and whether they are trying to sell a package r not, the fact remains… they made it! Everyone wants to be “there” and I am “here” Friggin HERE!! in my small messy room, with a dirty plate of leftover food I scroundered up 2 nights ago, trying hard to do whatever it takes to get… somewhere too. Let me show you how I feel:
I know it would take work, and I knew it would be hard. I just didn’t know it would be this kind of hard. The depressing kind, the kind where you just spend hours on something not even sure if the work you are doing is the right place to spend time and energy on. I don’t have a damn guide to tell me that this damn website is good. So if I do not know f this site is any good, spending so much time on it is a gamble.
But you know what? I have read somewhere that thinking negatively keeps your main in a state of negativity, and depression. You need to be strong and push on through. And honestly, what choice do I have really? As I had mentioned before, I couldn’t stand working for the man any longer despite a huge paycheck. So I quit!! And this is where I am right now. I can kinger in depression or stup above it. So let me try to be fun and funny again and see if this cheers me up… Let me see.. what is funny about quitting
OK so I did quit. Not very smart, but hell I live dangerously! On to REI full time! So yesterday I did go to the interview. Of course they liked my resume. And I am pretty sure I will get an offer. I HOPE they will not throw money at me as this will seriously tempt me to take the job and thus will not be able to try this adventure in Real Estate full time. Ahh what am I saying. I will do this full time even if they offer me more than my previous job. I can always get a job later if it doesn’t work out (which is blasphemy). See why do I allow for temptation and distraction. Screw this. I am NASA damn it. I can do anything. You know what? YEAH damn it. I CAN do anything!
OK good talk, I love convincing myself. Pat on the back. Pat on my ass, “good game”
As it is already friday… I HAVE to go to an attorney’s office and get my paperwork straightened out and ask the for advice on my intentions as I do not want to get in trouble with the man with taxes etc. etc. once I do get a contract signed. So I think it is a good step (to waste a bunch of money on damn it). I have been postponing it for so long and I just have no idea what else to do so why not do this as I know that eventually I have to do it. Imagine, there will be a time where I will whip out this contract and sign it. WOuld be so awesome to have all kinds of signatures on it and all official looking. OK Something to look forward to.
So with a lot of effort I have to stop fiddling with my site for a bit and just go out and be amongst “people”… in fancy suits, which I do not like one bit! Yes, at least I am doing something that takes me one step closer to having my dream house, my dream life in Italy, UK, Amsterdam, Prague.. and a few houses of envy here in the good ol USA.
Way to keep myself motivated.
Till the next one.
The lonesome monkey